This whole "slowing down" thing is really, really hard on me. I am a VERY active person. I thrive when managing 25 million things at once. I am happiest in life when I am busy. Since I had a slightly rough recovery with the blood loss and all, I was told to stay on bed rest for the first few days, and now I still am supposed to be sort of taking it easy, and just slowly returning to normal activity, but it is really, really hard on me.
Physically, I realize I have to. I was up and around a bit on Thursday and Friday, both around the house and a little out of the house, and while it was seriously nothing compared to my usual lifestyle, by Friday night, I was just zonked and physically really feeling the effects of it. I spent yesterday on the couch. Now today, I feel pretty good, and overall, I am sort of getting a little stir crazy. It is in my nature to want to stay busy. While I LOVE the stress-free feeling of being on maternity leave and not having a full stovetop of pots all boiling at the same time and 100 deadlines looming in the distance, it is in my nature to want to fill my time. I am having to make a conscious effort not to totally fill my calendar up, since Tiana and I need time to adjust.
Plus... I left several things somewhat undone upon leaving for break, like about 40 papers ungraded, so I need time to stay home and finish those too. But oh it is tempting to just be busy.